A Letter to My Mister

A wise person once mentioned that letters to your future husband are similar to prayers; they are often kept in secret, mental conversations riddled with some of your deepest most coveted thoughts and dreams...

Dear Future Mister,

As a little girl I was never the one who pretended to be married to a superstar. I didn't have a secret crush or celebrity posters that lined my walls.  In fact I rarely even played with barbies or dolls.

 

As a teen, with dating I noticed the realms of popularity and status.  I found myself at a crossroads where smarts, athlete, and band geek intersected.  At sleepovers, I still wasn't a fan of MASH or other dreamy games; I don't recall signing my name as a "misses" to my secret crush either.

 

As a young adult I find myself still being an exception to the rule.  I've been told in more than one relationship, that they'd "never encountered a girl like me".  In a few instances I understood their point; but in most instances felt everyone is different, and pondered if this was a point even worth mentioning or sharing in the first place.

Getting older (and I believe wiser) I find myself thinking of you more. I've given thought to who you are; truly reflected- not just on what you do, how you look, or your story...but rather what is carried within your heart. 

When I think of who you are I am overjoyed. I think of your strength, wisdom, humor, and intelligence.  I think of your heart and spirit; I envision your inner-self to be free and warm.

When I think about how you adore me, I beam; about how you support me makes my eyes smiles; and about how you honor me, simply makes my heart sing.

I envision melting with your touch and allowing my mind to drift with your gaze. I know your intellectual conversation and thought provoking perspectives will keep me striving for more from this life; creating change in our communities, no matter how big or small. I imagine the moments and possible hours that pass by as we stimulate one another with thoughts, ideas, actions, and plans.

I foresee a time where we need no music to dance, where my worse to you is still viewed as my best, and in a room filled with people we only see each other.  

I'm aware that obstacles will arise and already I appreciate the times you anchor me, and rough times where we weather the storm. I know we will disagree but am sure we will learn compromise and balance. I'm sure there will be hills and valleys but hope we travel them together. I'm confident I will make you better and you will pour into me- keeping one another enriched and full-hearted.

I await the moment so simple yet sweet; however truly everlasting, where I know you are the mister I've been awaiting. The split second where my life has changed because my heart has been matched with one who is equally yoked with all of me and whom I am. Until that day, I will continue to be hopeful and faithful; after-all there is no rush when a couple of forever is the goal.

Lord, let me love myself and love others always, let me be open to love from others, let me stay cloaked in your love, and be patient, watchful, and obedient for my true love. AMEN